I’ve changed. It seems like i’m so much better now that i’m no longer your ghost and i became the one that’s hurting the others. I no longer feel the need to change myself (thats maybe bc i changed) or feel insecure. I know the fault lies with you n not me. It feels good to know that i’m no longer abled to be manipulated by you n that you probably hurt more than me now. I felt so much stronger when i could say ‘i don’t care anymore n there’s nothing u can change’ and walked off bc in the past i wouldn’t have done that. Yes i say i don’t care about you but fact is i think about us so much. Sometimes the good times. But then killed at the thought of all the bad things you’ve done to me. You were so selfish. You did everything out for yourself. You never did once considered my feelings. It was like i’m your fucking puppet. I hate you for that bc i’m much more worthy than this n you’re not. I’m baffled because most of the time when people say they love me and regard me, they are often the ones who hurt me. That including you. Thats why i do not care anymore. You killed all the hope i’ve left. So tell me, how am i going to continue now? I’ve been living half alive these days. I’m such a player. Thats because you fucking killed my feelings. It all ceased the day when i finally saw the light n snapped. N now you want me one more time? How? How the fucking hell?

i’ve been feeling just a little empty nowadays. ‘cause my heart breaks a little when i hear your name when i should be over you ages ago. i thought i’ve let it go, all those memories, the sound of voice, the things you said, you. i was too weak. its like you just have to snap a finger and i’ll come back to you. i was too weak.